Plans & Pieces

I'm not sure how it happens but even with the planning I do I'm sort of always caught up in the last minute rush? It is literally the day of the event! *lol* This week has been a whirlwind! On top of trying to sort this art thing there was like 3 or 4 things in the house that needed immediate attention on a long weekend. AT ONCE. I'm blaming all 6 of the retrogrades! Hehehe. Not really but it was intense all the same.

I balance a lot of things and keeping them all in the air smoothly is kind of a personal point of pride. We have goals that we are constantly working on & most of them take careful planning, teamwork, & time, then once we do it people are like how in the merde de cheval did you do that? Once we decide on something there's very rarely been an instance where we back out of the work it takes, but somehow always there's this last minute rush of little things due to unforseen circumstances!

You can have things all go according to plan but there's always going to be those things you can't account for that happen. When we bought our house it took me forever to unpack because even though everything was labelled correctly we ended up only having one person to help & less time than we had budgeted for so things got pitched willy nilly in the new place, for example. I do have a point to do with this blog, stick with me. I'm not used to putting the brain noodles out there just yet. I've been notoriously private for a long time. It's taking a lot of courage to open up & let y'all have some pasta. Also I think I might be needing breakfast. Brb. *snack interlude*

Back: Another example of last minute rush that ties into our house & eventually this post, is that we took three years to build up to buying a house, looked at 4 houses, chose the 4th, then everything happened in 30 days, but actually nothing happened between days 1 & 28 pretty much! There was a lot of things that got put into motion after having worked hard on them like finalizing paperwork, getting financial things sorted, the packing & etc, there's a whole list of adult-y things that nobody ever teaches you about; then when you go to do them you're like "Excuse me I have to learn this as I'm doing it, stand-by." Except you don't have time to really stand by because things are set in motion so you're just flying by the forking seat of your pants! THAT'S MY POINT. There we go. I knew it was in there. 

Last post I mentioned that you have to do the logical grown up stuff of planning etc. This post I wanted to say that all the planning in the world, while good & necessary, can NEVER account for EVERYTHING that will happen. You can cover most things, but there will inevitably be those things that come up when you finally push play that leave you like "What in the ever loving spaghetti pants is this now?" For me once I put things in motion now I'm almost expecting the flurry of last minute things, & I feel like I have a better handle on them than I once did, but they still STRESS ME OUT. For today, I ended up needing some bits & bobs so that led to the last minute shopping trip, & now I'm dealing with the usual emotions when things have gone from planning to doing: "WHAT HAVE I DONE?!" *lol* It's normal, it's valid, & it's going to be OK.

If you've planned the best you can, are prepared the best you can, then all you can do is just embrace the rush! Things work out if you've put the work in, so take that stress & intead of freaking out from it, apply that energy to grounding yourself: do something restful & relaxing. I've been making a point to step away from the "doing" things & focus on things that ground me like my journaling practice, etc. Life will always have the unexpected things happening. It's up to us to trust the process! Plan your success as best you can, & all the pieces will fall into place, even if some of them are haphazard: TRUST THE PROCESS. :) A friend of mine has a good theory on this balancing thing: imagine all your priorities/responsibilities are balls that you are juggling. Some of them are glass, they can never fall. Some of them are rubber, they can bounce. Decide which are which & act accordingly. 

À demain,

Izzy

P.S: This goose was my gaming avatar for many moons & it fits my mood precisely most of the time lately. Life is great, but I'm looking at it like: